PrideFirst Generation

First Gen Stories

  • "My res hall was the nicest place I’d ever lived" - Russ Smith

    The day I moved to college, I woke up around 4 am to get ready. My car was already packed, and my mom was getting ready for work. A high school drop out, she had gotten her GED while I was in middle school. I said goodbye to her, and drove from my hometown in Kansas, across the state of Missouri, to my new college in St. Louis. When I arrived, I was told to drive my car into a circle drive, and immediately people opened all my car doors and pulled out everything I owned and put it on a nearby tarp. I was then told to go park my car, and go inside to check in and get my room key – that all my stuff would be in my room by the time I arrived. I remember being terrified that it would all get stolen, but I had no choice but to comply. I breathed a sigh of relief when I turned the key in the lock and my belongings were all accounted for.

    I spent the day quietly unpacking. I heard the families in rooms around me complaining about the space, and I was shocked. I had hardwood floors and an air conditioner in my room – this was the nicest place I’d ever lived. My new roommate arrived with his parents, but as he only had two suitcases, they quickly left. My RA, Jenn, asked where my family was, and I told her that they were at work. I couldn’t understand why everyone's parents were there to help them move in – It was a week day. Didn’t they have to be at work also?

    I went to college with $600 in my pocket. I had saved $300 from working all summer, and my mom and step dad gave me $300 – all that they could contribute to my college expenses. That was to last until I found a way to make more money – I was officially on my own.

    The next day, I had to go buy my text books, and quickly saw $400 of my $600 go away. (This was before the days of used books on Amazon, or renting books from Chegg. I had to buy what was in the bookstore) I only had $200 left to last until December.

    Because of this, I had to learn quickly about work study jobs, and I got myself one. I also heard about jobs at The Gap at a nearby mall from a friend on my floor, and got a job there also. While I didn’t feel like my background gave me much to share in common with those living near me, it didn’t stop us from learning about each other and ultimately becoming friends. Many of these friendships continue for me 18 years later.

    Because nobody in my family had ever been to college, I didn’t have anyone to ask what to expect. Looking back, however, the process of having to figure it all out for myself made me a much stronger person with great problem-solving skills – but all that came at the cost of feeling constantly like I did not belong. I always felt like someone would figure out that I shouldn’t be there, and I’d be asked to leave. I’ve since learned that there’s a name for that – Imposter Syndrome – and many others feel it too. I wish that there had been a supportive community for me to be a part of, where I would not have felt like this. It doesn’t have to be that way at Hofstra, though. I’m so proud of the work that’s being done here to create a community of pride and support for first gen students. There are a ton of faculty, administrators, and other students who want to help you and see you succeed because they remember what it felt like to be in your shoes. Don’t be too afraid to take advantage of that. The support of these individuals can lead directly to you reaching your educational and career goals.

    Russ Smith

    Russ Smith

  • "I didn’t give myself enough credit" - Diane Herbert

    I didn’t know what it meant to be a first-generation college student when I started as a freshman at SUNY Binghamton. To be honest, I never thought about the unique aspects and challenges of being a first-generation college student until a few years ago, about 25 years after earning my bachelor’s degree.

    I am extremely proud of my academic accomplishments, especially when I stop and give thought to the fact that my mother didn’t graduate high school and my father didn’t continue his education beyond high school. But when I think back on my first year of college, I distinctly remember feeling self-conscious and concerned about whether I was as smart as other students who got into the same college as me. I saw myself as a hard worker and was confident about my commitment to my schoolwork, but I never gave myself credit for being smart and was anxious about whether I had the same capacity for success. This was especially true in classes where life experiences and personal background contributed to class discussions. I was not “worldly” at all. Growing up I had only one family vacation outside of my home state. There were no political discussions in our home and no trips to museums or famous landmarks. And, any focus on academics was prompted by my own internal drive rather than parental expectations.

    Reminiscing on my undergraduate (and graduate) school years makes me realize how much I would have benefitted from knowing other students who had experiences similar to mine, as well as knowing staff and faculty at my school who could have guided me through some of the unique challenges that I was facing as a first-generation student. I would have asked questions and embraced feedback on time management, budgeting, major and career exploration, realistic goal setting strategies, and many other thoughts that were going through my head at the time. It is for these reasons that I am so proud of Hofstra’s commitment to support our first-generation students and why I choose to be involved in this resource. I encourage all first-generation Hofstra students to attend some of our tailored events and take the time to connect with at least one first-gen student and Hofstra staff or faculty member. I hope you’ll reach out to me!!!

    Diane Herbert

    Diane Herbert

  • "What the (Heck) is a Bursar??" - Darlene Johnson

    "What the (Heck) is a Bursar??"

    I started college at St. John’s University in September of 1987.  Yes, that was a long time ago.  I don’t remember everything about that first week of school.  I do remember that I absolutely loved my white boots with fringes on them.  I remember that I got completely lost finding my first class, located in the school library (who would think that a class would be in the library??) and I remember thinking to myself “what the (heck) is a bursar?”

    Back then everything was done in person.  On line meant that you had to actually wait, on a line. A very long line.  But that was only after you figured out where you were supposed to go and why.

    I remember having to go to both the registrar and the bursar, but having no idea what these were.  Remember, this was before Google (I will give you a moment to get over the idea of living without Google…)  I didn’t have a family member to ask.  None of my friends from high school continued to St. John’s.  I was alone and felt very much that way.  I made mistakes choosing my classes.  I was asked questions that I did not know the answers to.  I got lost, literally and figuratively.

    Before long I made great friends.  One friend’s father was actually the chairperson of an academic department at the school. Score!  I remember being so impressed and surprised about that.  I never knew someone who had a parent that was a professor, let alone a chairperson.  I now had this great connection. Someone who could answer my questions.  Sometimes all it takes is one good contact to start off your academic career. 

    So, I would suggest that any student, first-gen or not, find that one person who can answer your questions.  That person can be a fellow student, professor, career counselor, academic advisor, etc.  Eventually your network of people will grow, but having one person in your corner from the start can make a world of difference.

    The first generation committee members are happy to be that person for you!  Don’t hesitate tor each out to us. We remember the challenges, but we also remember the rewards that come with putting yourself out there!

    Darlene Johnson


    Darlene Johnson
    Director of External Relations for The Career Center

  • "On Not Going It Alone" - Kris Lotier

    "On Not Going It Alone"

    There’s probably always a tension in being the first of your kind. It’s especially true for first-generation college students, though. It’s easy to feel pulled in many directions at once, and to feel all sorts of feelings: a kind of pride, a kind of terror, a kind of shame (or is it guilt? or is it doubt?). Depending on your upbringing, you may feel like others need you to succeed—that you represent hope for them, or that your success is somehow the culmination of their own. Maybe your parents or grandparents or guardians worked hard to give you this opportunity, so you feel like you can’t waste it. Depending on your upbringing, you may feel like you’ve always had to do everything on your own, and now you need to do this thing—graduate from college—on your own, too. You may feel a lot of pressure, a lot of the time.
     
    Other times, though, you may feel like it wouldn’t matter that much if you failed. At least then you’d fit in better back where you came from.
     
    Being the first means that you’re different, even exceptional. That can be a good thing, and it’s something to celebrate, but it can also be a hard thing. It’s ok to admit that.
     
    I am a fourteenth generation Pennsylvanian and, so far as I know, a first-generation full-time college student. (My parents did eventually earn college degrees, but they took night classes while working full-time jobs. As a result, I’m much more proud of my mom for earning her associate’s degree than I am of my own doctorate.)
     
    I was blessed in all sorts of ways to go to college at all, but I felt pretty lost once I got there. If any of my friends were first-generation students, they didn’t talk about it. And they all seemed to know what to do in college and how to do it. I didn’t know how to navigate even the most “basic” tasks, like registering for classes or scheduling meetings with advisors. I had no idea what would happen if I went to see my professors in their offices, so mostly I didn’t go. I didn’t know who to ask for advice—and so I followed some bad recommendations at points.
     
    Eventually, I learned that it’s alright to ask for help, even to ask for help from the same person more than once (or twice, or however many times). I learned that most professors and support staff could be doing other things with their lives instead, but they’re doing what they’re doing because they want to help students succeed. I also learned to ask for second and third opinions when the first one didn’t seem quite right. I learned that even well-meaning professionals are busy and they can make mistakes. So, I slowly learned how to double-check some things on my own. You can, and you I hope you will, learn all of those things too.
     
    I’m proud to be working at an institution like Hofstra that’s serious about helping first-generation students navigate the particular challenges that they alone face. And I hope this message, and the efforts of the First Generation Committee to create a supportive and encouraging community, help you to feel a little bit less alone.

    Professor Kris Lotier

    All the best,
    Kris Lotier
    Assistant Professor of Writing Studies and Rhetoric

  • “I Didn't Know What I Didn't Know...” - Beth McGuire

    “I Didn't Know What I Didn't Know...”

    I knew that I wanted to have a college experience and lived in a community where it was expected that I attend college but I had no idea what that really meant.  I am one of 8 children in my family and there are large age gaps between the oldest and the youngest of the eight.  When I was filling out my college applications and financial paperwork my oldest sister was helping her oldest son with the process too.  I remember thinking “good, she can help me!”. 

    Until that point in my life I had never really heard about my parent’s education levels or their college experiences.  I had never noticed that there weren’t any diplomas hanging on the wall or college memorabilia around the house.  Through my college application process, I found out that my mother didn’t even have a GED!  I couldn’t believe it.  She was the smartest person I had ever met.  She was a voracious reader who read on average about 4 books per week.  She had a Physicians Desk Reference book on her nightstand and would often look up the counterindications for the many asthma medications my younger sister Maura was taking.  Each night as a family we would watch Jeopardy and as usual my mother would run through all the categories getting every one of them right.  She was incredibly intelligent yet not formally educated.  Through my application process my mother began her own journey of formal education and started with her GED.  Next, she applied to community college and started taking classes.  My mother and I were going to college at the same time, comparing marks for our first college papers.  It was a surreal experience and taught me a lot about persistence. 

    My college journey started with a community college too.  At the time I didn’t know about the resources that were available to me.  I didn’t know what classes to take or what major to declare.  I kept changing my major and took so many classes that when I transferred to Stony Brook University I transferred in with 89 credits!  I realize now that I needed to ask more questions, reach out for help, but I felt embarrassed, like I was the only person who didn’t know what they were doing. I felt ashamed to admit that I didn’t get how the whole college system worked.   

    At Stony Brook University I met some great administrators who took the time to get to know me and guided me in a way that helped me explore but also focus on my future endeavors and what I wanted them to be.  I consider myself lucky that I fell into the RA position which educated me about how to provide resources to my floor and my students.  These were resources that I needed too.  Through my RA experience I realized that student affairs was the field that I wanted to work within.  Helping students achieve their goals and persist through challenging times was my calling.  While the struggles of being a first-generation student are real and pose many challenges, I am grateful to work in a field that recognizes those challenges and meets those challenges with support and resources.

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    Beth McGuire
    Senior Assistant Dean of Students & Director of Residence Life

  • “Finding your First Gen Career Zen” - Sabrina Iaria

    “Finding your First Gen Career Zen”

    Six years ago, I was staring at my computer, ridden with fear. In front of me was the Common App, but behind me there was no one. No one who could help guide me through the process of applying to college. I was the first in my family to even consider incorporating college into my long-term plan. Although I knew I had incredible amounts of support from both my parents and the rest of my relatives, I knew I had the burden of figuring out how to get where I wanted to be all on my own. Knowing that, combined with the high expectations that my family had for me, the pressure was on.

    My freshmen year at Hofstra was definitely a culture shock. Being on a college campus seemed like being on another planet, filled with aliens that were accustomed to life on Mars. Although my new normal was nothing shy of exciting, there was a slight feeling of insecurity, as if I did not belong here. I kept this feeling to myself, both because I did not want to hurt my parents’ feelings and I knew they could not relate.

    Looking back, I was lucky enough to find my niche at Hofstra, specifically in career services. I started working in the Career Center as an undergraduate assistant and opted to make a career out of it. Although I attribute my success to both my Hofstra journey and my support system, there are some things that I would’ve done differently. I can now clearly see the advantages that I have in the workforce as a first-generation student. I had to go the extra mile to get where I want to be, which goes hand-in-hand with the work ethic that I learned as the daughter of parents who had to compensate for their lack of degrees. The transferable skills that I have acquired as a result of my upbringing will carry me through all future endeavors. I encourage all first-generation students to approach their college experience with this attitude and find ways to connect with other first-generation students that share your thoughts and feelings. This is an aspect of myself that I am more than proud of and you should be too!

    Sabrina Iaria

    Best.
    Sabrina Iaria
    Graduate Assistant of External Relations